No one wants to read this

Nobody wants to read anything I have to say... Why you don't ask?
Because nobody gives a flying fuck about what I have to say.

I'm frustrated. I feel like I fucking hate so many people. All those fucking people I've been there for... Where the fuck are they when I need someone? No where to be found.

So here I am, upset but all I want is happiness. So I'm going to steal my happiness back. And whatever I do to make that happen, so be it. My life.

It really is hard having PTSD.

I hate being mad at my BFF or what I thought was that. But seriously, ignore me when I'm having the first full blown PTSD attack in years and then pretend you get that message late evening the next day. The fuck you did. Because literally days later I watch you ignore your phone and say you'll just act like you didn't get it when another of our friends needed you. Then you wanna be snippy with me about other stupid shit. I get it, you've got a lot going on but so do I! And if I can not count on you when I need you then you are not my best friend. Have I stopped texting you so much? Have I stopped telling you things about my life? That's because nobody gives a fuck.

People always say if you need me, I'll be there for you. Well that's just not true. Why? Because nobody fucking cares!