Weekend fun

What a fun weekend♥ I don't usually go out and drink much anymore but Friday, I spent the day at the bar with my girly friend with the blue hair, love her! We played pool and had drinks, hung out and smoked with our pink haired friend, live her too. Then we headed downtown to another bar and had some yummys and more drinks and ima tell you I absolutely never ever ever ever ever EVER drink Froot Loops Vodka again. It's terrible. Like my blue haired friend said, leave that to the children.... Yes we're horrible and by children we mean 21 year old kids because we old.

Hilariously, one girl totally asked of we were together lol nope, not at all. We laughed pretty good about that one. We made her take a bunch of jello shots with us. My tongue turned blue. Like seriously blue hahaha!!!!

Went for a drive in the rain today.... and wow was it raining! I mean ultimate downpour, the drive down to my friends house wasn't so bad but holy mother of all rain rain rain the drive home sucked!

All in all it was an excellent weekend ♥ Smooches my friends

♥ Confessions of a Fat Girl ♥

♥Fat girl confessions♥

♥ I'm eating a cookie and it's delicious! I'll probably have another one after this because it is so yummy in my tummy ♥

♥ When people talk about "cleansing" diets, like that lemonade only thing for a week, I think "I'm good, I don't do anorexia" ♥

♥ I love salads and ice water, BLTs and carrots but I also love everything else except gross stuff and that is entirely subject to my opinion at the moment it's in front of me♥

♥ I will be the first person to talk bad about fat people and their clothing choices.... You're fat. Dress adorable but dress well. MooMoo's are never acceptable♥

♥ I'm fat. So? ♥

♥ Skinny people look like they're sick. Then there's the healthnut obsessors, yikes they're just kinda.. Umm..yea... And the gymrats a bit much with those muscles yo ♥

♥ Shopping for clothes suck's. Like seriously suck's. They never, I repeat NEVER, fit right. Ever.♥

♥ I get hangry when I'm hungry and that means, feed me. For reals, I need good food and something to drink. I'm fat, I gota sustain♥

♥eye rolling will happen if you complain about being fat when you're a size 7. You are not fat, you are asking for a compliment and being rude. You should be fat if you're going to call yourself fat♥

♥I'm eating another cookie♥

♥ I'm fat because I eat, a lot. I'm more active than a lot of skinny people I know, I go on mad adventures all the time♥

And this has been the first of 'Confessions of a Fat Girl'♥ Smooches♥

Still Staticly Frustrationable .....Grrr

Still Staticly Frustrationable ...Grrr

The things I did today did not help in changing this plague of an attitude I have lately. That overly staticy feeling, the frustration of feeling frazzled to no end. Everything is annoying, even the sounds of the world from voices to the sound of the refrigerator running. It's all irritating. Choosing what I do for the day will play an important role in changing this emotion in my life at this time. Tomorrow, I will go in search of her...

... The girl I used to be. She seems a little farther away today than she did yesterday. That makes my heart hurt and I can slightly feel a cringe in my eye like something's about to leak. I need a good nights sleep. You know, one of those nights that when you awake, you feel energized and ready to take on the world... I really want one of those. Hopefully tonight will change my demeanor, make me have the desire to find myself again and let that girl I used to be reign throughout me forever!

So tonight I shall eat some cookies that my husband made for me and hang out with one of my bestest friends in this amazing planet we're a part of. So good night and hopefully tomorrow I find her, the girl I used to be...

Selfie fun

This night was a karaoke night for one of my girlys birthdays. We had fun, drank and screamed like silly wooo girls :-*

Everything Feels Static-E Lately

Everything feels static-E lately...

That's about the only way to explain how it feels inside my head. Agitated, jumpy, splitting an overall static of constant nonsense from frustrated, obnoxious, annoyed to happy, excited, loving. I don't like it. Makes me feel argumentative when I see something that's just not right and it's making me really want to just tell people off about their stupidity or rudeness or no reason at all. I'm mad. I feel it in my blood. Deep down, it's there stirring my emotions of how everything has gone throughout the years, it makes me angry. I need to move on...

... Into a happier era. One where I feel free to be me. The girl I used to be. I miss her. It's like she gets lost sometimes but eventually pops her head back up and then she's there and I'm trying to hold on, to keep her with me. I don't want to loose her again, I want to hold on tight and never let her go. So I'm going to try to be the girl I used to be with happiness and cheer and all those wonderful things I hold so dear. A struggle to hold on, to remember what she was and how she viewed the world... but I see her, right there! She's there, so close yet just a bit out of reach.

Maybe when I reach her, the static will stop. She is the key of who I was and always want to be. So please excuse me while I venture into this realm in search of the girl I used to be :-*