Everything Feels Static-E Lately

Everything feels static-E lately...

That's about the only way to explain how it feels inside my head. Agitated, jumpy, splitting an overall static of constant nonsense from frustrated, obnoxious, annoyed to happy, excited, loving. I don't like it. Makes me feel argumentative when I see something that's just not right and it's making me really want to just tell people off about their stupidity or rudeness or no reason at all. I'm mad. I feel it in my blood. Deep down, it's there stirring my emotions of how everything has gone throughout the years, it makes me angry. I need to move on...

... Into a happier era. One where I feel free to be me. The girl I used to be. I miss her. It's like she gets lost sometimes but eventually pops her head back up and then she's there and I'm trying to hold on, to keep her with me. I don't want to loose her again, I want to hold on tight and never let her go. So I'm going to try to be the girl I used to be with happiness and cheer and all those wonderful things I hold so dear. A struggle to hold on, to remember what she was and how she viewed the world... but I see her, right there! She's there, so close yet just a bit out of reach.

Maybe when I reach her, the static will stop. She is the key of who I was and always want to be. So please excuse me while I venture into this realm in search of the girl I used to be :-*