Even if you get shot in a drive-by you can still have an amazing life

Work-
So unfortunately I've had to develop the attitude of-not my circus, not my monkeys- at work. I just can't let myself get so worked up over things not getting done. I'm an amazing employee and have mad awesome skills but seriously, I'm human! Plus+  it's summer and I have much better things on my list to do than stress about work. :-P

The river-
was epic when we went to float Monday. We did 2 runs. Totes fun! Sunshine, floating, calm waters, fast spots, friends, good times..... Mostly lol ok ok ok.... On the 2nd round of floating I got stuck in a fast rushing shallow spot which meant every time I tried to stand I was tugged back down while trying not to lose my float..... And then 3 teenagers had their tubes tied with a rope which of course wrapped around me.... Sigh that hurt.... Hubby came to the rescue... Helped me out... Then couldn't handle it because I was bleeding down the front of my legs from all those sharp little rocks. Not bad, didn't even bruise a whole lot which was very surprising! All in all that was a few minutes out of hours of fantastic float time!

The lake-
Saturday we floated out at the lake and of course right when we got out to the middle my tube breaks... Doesn't pop, actually freaking breaks. I use the half Moon float with the seat that goes across. So hysterically both pieces are still inflated and I'm in the water. The hubs was cute and offered me his float but ...ummm hi... We're out in the center of the lake, I can't get on that! I'm a genius tho so I deflated my tube halfway and used it as a float for under my arms and chest. It was funny, my friends we're freaking out because I was in the water and they were all worried.... I can swim so I wasn't worried at all... Appreciate their love tho!!!

Aftermath-
Sunburn ~ not bad, I'll totally tan fast
Pain level ~ probably a 6 which means stairs are really hard to go up and down.
Cuts and scrapes ~ so many which means I haven't shaved my legs in 3 days and that's the worst feeling in the world to me and they will be shaved today before I have an epic fit!
Next adventure ~ camping this weekend! Wooohooo can't wait!

Have an adventurous day today and don't forget even if you get shot the fuck up in a drive-by, you can still have an amazing awesome life!

Do one thing today!

If there is one thing you should do today, it's make yourself happy!

You are the only one in control of you and how you feel, no one else can control that.

Sometimes shit happens and then you've got to bitch about it and move on. That was me yesterday.. About work... I have a love/hate relationship with that place... I might need an attitude adjustment on my end. I just can't keep letting myself get angry because they're a bunch of  (some are fucktards) (others are fucking awesome) people. I guess I'll have to adapt a new attitude and that's- if it doesn't get done, not my problem. I'm choosing happy. I'm blowing stress off my shoulders, it is no longer my problem. I choose me. Me wants happy!

On a side note- I love coffee and am going to drink sooooooooo much today! YaY!

Don't forget, make yourself happy for you!

I'm pretty sure...

I'm pretty sure my boss should just give me the day off. It's freaking amazing outside! Sigh stupid responsibilities! Pfffttttttt

Lol anyways, ima go build like 25 2-post trophies today... YaY me

Mondays....

Mondays are my favorite! I don't work Mondays and me best friend doesn't either! Woot woot! Today's epic Monday adventure is going to involve a float, a river and a ton of fun!

Fingers crossed my tube doesn't pop!

Thatsa big tomato!

Night y'all! Kisses and sweet dreams

Tonight shall be a night filled with wondrous dreams and grand adventures every step of the way

Sleep well world, you mean everything to me

I lovers you to the moon and back!

If ever there was a moment when a slumber so deep becomes the world of the dream we're in then at that moment the dream becomes the reality of which we be. Those moments to cherish of thoughts turned play only to understand it was just inside ones head. After awhile what once was becomes what is only to turn back into the impossibility of the desire to which our world masquerades the reality of life whilst deep in that dark dark slumber.

2008-ish

What's the difference between an alcoholic and a pot head?

I find it absolutely hilarious that some people think it's OK to drink all the time but then have a huge problem with people who smoke pot everyday. Like, are you fucking serious? You get wasted, I get wasted it should be whatever's but some people are just judgmental hippocritical ass hats.

Have you ever seen a bar brawl? I sure as fuck have. Have you ever seen a pot brawl... Me neither. Shut up and hit that shit we all friends here. Have you heard of all the fatalities from drinking and driving? Yup, me too. How about that pot head doing 20 in a 30mph zone... Damn he's driving slow... Just saying. (Don't drive if you're under the influence of anything. Period.) But really these fucks gona judge me? What the fuck? Oh you smoke weed? -with that look of disdain on their face... Oh you're an ass? With an even more intense look of disdain.

How about you don't be a judgmental twatwaffle and we can all just be friends?

Hungover

Nope not hungover today.... Maybe tomorrow lol!

Ok, so last night we went to the bar which, technically it's a private club because you pay a cover. A hole $2! You can smoke cigarettes and marijuana there, so glad that shits finally legal. Anywhoo... Had a couple of amazing drinks and by amazing I mean, WOW, that bitch makes a fucking badass drink!

Me and my girly are playing pool, having fun and of course there's this creeper fucking dude that keeps trying to conversate with us. Take a hint ya creeper! How many times we gota blatantly ignore you for you to not get it? Apparently a bazillion. So I go to the bathroom and he approaches my friend and asks to join us, she's polite and tells him no. He keeps watching us the entire time we're playing. Then when my friend goes to bathroom he approaches me and tried to start up a conversation by asking if he can take pictures of our balls because we're on a game break. My one word reply. NO. He promptly turned around and went back to his seat where I'm sure he was talking pictures of us the whole time we're playing. That shits not cool dude.

Let's see there was another dude that kept trying to bump into me with his 400lb fat ass. Seriously, personal bubble dude, get the fuck out.

Side note- I'm a big girl and I have zero problem talking shit about fat people. I am one. But as a fat girl, I have a certain responsibility to myself and other people to be aware of my surroundings and not purposely run into people.

That guy was an asshat.

I could really go for another drink but I guess ima be responsible and head to work instead o.0

Once upon a time

Nobody gave a fuck.

The end.

Me and my Angel

Oh my!

I really did freak out about that, didn't I?

It's raining!

YaY! It's finally raining! Wooohooo! I'm so freaking sick n tired of the heat. I live in Washington, the temperature should be in the 70's right meow but noooooo it's been all up in the 90's making it so yucky hot. I've never missed TX so much lol at least there we had central air... Oh how I miss AC! The little house I live in now is in the sun from sun up to sun down and it's horrid, absolutely horrid.

On another note...

YaY! I love coffee!!!!!

Summertime

YaY! It's freaking sunny out and I'm off at 3 today! I love summer! Woot woot. Hmmm should I go to the lake or the river or maybe Lakefair since that's starting today..

So, so far, I've done a few things on my bucket list for this summer but I'm thinking I might have to forge ahead with it without trying to include the hubby in all of them. That amazing man is just working so hard and so many hours, I don't think he has time.

Mmmm coffee

I'm a little scattered today hahaha

The girl who got shot

As I lay here writing this, my eyes are red, puffy and I've been uncontrollably shaking from the memories of being shot. Sometimes you just shouldn't Google yourself. So many articles. My curiosity took me there, maybe I should've stopped after the first article. I didn't. I read them all. My heart hurts for the girl I used to be, for the survivor I was forced to become.

In one article I was quoted as saying 'sometimes I just wished I was dead' that wasn't because I wanted to be, it was because the pain was so great and so intense it would've been easier. I also said 'he ruined me life' which is true. The life I had is gone and can never be gotten back. Let's make no mistake tho, I am very happy to be alive, I just miss her... The girl I used to be.

The amount of pain and suffering I've endured is so much more than any person ever should. It's been 19 years, over half my life since that horrific night. Yet, it feels like it was just yesterday.... I can feel it... I can hear it..... It never stops

Shot 3 times in a drive-by. 9mm with armor piercing bullets. Right knee, left hip, entered in my shoulder and stopped on my spine in my neck. Even when I write this it's hard to believe that's me. The girl who got shot.

My tears have finally stopped, for now. They'll be back again someday, I never know which day tho. That's always a surprise for me. I'll be going along great not letting it get to me, even with the everyday pain and then randomly, it's there changing my happy moments to memories of terror and excruciating pain.

Every single thing I do, no matter what is going on, the fact that I got shot is always there with every single step. Whether I'm walking or sitting, I can feel it. To be able to feel the difference at all times, to have the knowledge of what my body used to feel like and no longer does, that makes my heart drop so fast.

Tomorrow is a new day but I will still be the girl who got shot, living in pain each day for the rest of my life. Regardless of that pain tho, there is one thing that I have now that I didn't have before I became the girl who got shot, that's the ambition to live each day as if it were my last because you never know, there's always a chance of getting shot in a drive-by and not making it.

Summer kick off

Ok, so I live in the beautiful pacific northwest which means that we get gorgeous weather but not all of it is conducive with outdoor water activities. Yesterday, however, was 95° and perfect water weather... Of course this is my first day of my work week. As soon as I got to work I told my boss it was the last place I wanted to be and if there was any way I could leave early to go float I'd truly appreciate it. She told me to finish my work up and I could leave early... Uh...I have no orders for tomorrow... So she went to the store and lunch real quick. As soon as she got back I left!

Adventure ahead! Waited for my bestie then we grabbed our floats and headed strait to the lake! The hubby got off work early too so he meet us there! We floated pretty far out. The waves from the boats going by rocked us pretty good. There were beach parties and swimmers, jet ski's, boats, snorkels, frog floats. A giant bouncy thing that one person jumps onto and it bounces the other person into the water, squirt guns and much much more!

It was a good kick off to our hottest July 1st in possibly forever here. <3 summer!