It's something I haven't even thought about. I felt secure and safe knowing they were in prison. Yesterday I find out one of them is getting out early... He's getting released early... How can this be?
His sentence: 30 years. It's only been 20. I don't get time off from the pain you forced into my life, why should you get time off from your sentence? It's not right. You did this. You made this happen. This is more your fault than the guy who's gun didn't jam. Yours jammed or we would all be dead. You had the problem with our driver. You left. You went and got guns and your friends. You searched and hunted for us. Found us. Drove up, passed us and sprayed the car with bullets. You were the one who made this happen. You were the one who changed everything about my life. And now you are the one getting out early? That's not right. That's not ok. That's not fair.
I've heard rumors from the victims advocate people of you trying to get out early for years because you found God. If you truly found God then you would know you're right where you should be. Don't claim to have found God but aren't willing to do His work in prison where you deserve to be. You wanna play the holy man now? Then why aren't you doing everything in your power to help other people in prison while you finish serving the sentence the judge gave you. How can you say you have found God when your only goal is to be out of prison? That's not what finding God means. You did this specifically so you could get out of prison early.
You are a cold, calculated animal. You hunted us and you tried to murder us. You claimed you didn't know there was girls in the car and we all know that's a bullshit story right there. You are the reason I got shot 3 times in a drive-by. You are the reason that every single step I take is painful. You are the reason I have PTSD. You are the reason I'm not the girl I used to be.
And yet... They're releasing you early?
I haven't thought about it, about how it would make my feel once you did finish serving your sentence. It really hasn't crossed my mind. I've felt safe knowing you were locked up. I've felt confident knowing you couldn't hurt me or anyone else. I felt safe. Felt. Not now. Definitely not now. Nope, not at all. Now I feel horrified. Now I have a 2 year stretch of feeling nervous waiting for you to get out... Waiting.. Not knowing what will happen.
I hope that you really do want to be a better person and be a productive member of society, but reality is you hunted us down and tried to murder us.
I'm horrified that you will be getting out in 2 years.
